ngiam
its been so much of hectic, ngiamness n blah-ish rubbishness for the week.okok. mayb im mean at my sarcastic snide comments.
sorry that u discovered the mean side of me after knowing me betta.
im not all that cheery 24/7 u know.
n now i sound like sum depressed ass.
no la.
not depressed or blah.
juz sianified.
ngiam. new word for today.
anyways. it was all 'juz -tryin-ta-get-thru'
n this are the times i stop and wonder wad the heck m i doing in life.
like completely goal-ess.
unless ya consider me wanting ta get into ntu mass comm as a goal.
which apparently i haven been workin towards.
yes i know im a freaking slacker.
sorryyyyyyy then.
sorry for dashing ur o-so-high expectations of me. well did it hav ta b dat sky high in the first place.
n i wasnt plotting ta murder anyone.
i swear.
dun ya think as ya type ur blog. its like ure talkin ta urself.
n like thats it.
then i stop ta think 'hey thats fun'
and its like huh?!?!?!
n ppl start rolling their eyes n saying 'barriers.............'
perhaps so.
lit tmrw.
the subject i adored so much has turned into a lesson i dread every week.
sumone giv me sum motivation please.
a lifetime free strawberry coated with choc card would cheer me up ALOT.
n ya.
all my flowers died even before blooming.
bad omen.
u think i will die young.
blooming
bloomed
dead before ya know it.
petals fall.
n all ya left with is the stalk n green crumpled veggie like leaves.
but they were so darn beautiful before.
beauty doesnt last.
see i proved it.
beauty=flower
flower withers up shrivels into brown hard paperish THINGS.
dead.
wow.
mayb it propogates first.
sexual organ of a plant.
dun look down on it.
ppl in gilead would love it.
o but i din recieve any red flowers.
no handmaid resemblance.
isnt it so like a woman.
u r like so darn youthful n such a pretty thing.
n then u reproduce.
start ta shrivel up.
die.
n it like repeats over n over again.
then wad r guys.
bees?
but bees die after a single sting.
i think im talkin digressing randomising a bit too much.
HOHO.
though i o do dum of the most embarrassing things eva.
like shouting out 'chee-zec!' in class
o cuming out with weird phrases n repeating them over n over juz for the kick annoying the hell outta ppl ard me.
mameemoo
mameemoo
mameemoo
mameemoo
mameemoo
y cnat i juz b lovable.
charm i need charm.
mayb sum magic potion would do the trick.
thats it.
im calling my witch now.
eh-heh.
*chuckles
